treatments for drug abuse

i was on a bus going to work, dope sick andready to commit suicide the day before. alcohol was always on the table, benzodiazepines,i really enjoyed crystal meth and cocaine. during the end the typical day would be tryingto get something down and going to the bathroom and just dry heave, eyes watering and lookingin that mirror and saying "what the hell are you doing?... what the hell are you doing?" when someone comes into the treatment center,they are completely broken. they are ashamed, they've hit the bottom. i remember sitting there and researching rehabsonline, and thinking "i can't believe that
i have to do this... i'm not that person, you know? i am so much better than this. how can this be happening to me?" you can see everybody's pain and tears andhow you're tearing everybody apart and it hurts... but you don't know how to stop. i called my mom and i could not stop crying. i could not. every time i would hear her voice i couldnot stop freaking crying.
at that point she said "okay, we need youto get help." the next day i was in above it all. you need to have someone to be there for you. it's hand in hand. someone to pick you up when you are aboutready to fall and you don't think you can go any further. and i'll be there to give you that hand. your best thing is what got you in all thattrouble. so you have to take some kind of directionfrom somebody that's walked this path before
you. for an addict to live in the developmentalstages of recovery, to live without substances... illicit substances is very difficult. it's like a mountain climber climbing a frigidmountain without any tools. so essentially, i come in and i provide thosetools. the first little while, that's very difficult. there's all these emotions that start comingback, you start feeling things and you just want to numb those feelings. you know?
that's very hard in the initial 30, 60, 90days is very hard because you get off the drugs and then your feelings start comingback and you are thinking about all the things you've done and all the people you've hurtand then it really hurts you, you know? kory is, he is, phenomenal. he goes so far and above and beyond what isrequired. he wants everyone to have the ultimate experience. within two days you start to see a difference. within a week a huge difference and in justa matter of days or weeks it's totally amazing. totally amazing.
if you don't want that feeling of hopelessnessand dispair, above it all saved my life. make the call and you know, jump in with bothfeet. you're a beautiful person and you deserveto have a new life and have an experience. all you have to do is make the call, you know? all you have to do is make the call and it'llsave your life.